On the Patio

San Cristobal Cigars

Appearances

Just when you think you have it all fingered out, they trick you. Or you trick yourself. Sometimes it is what you want to believe, you're convinced of it. How many times are you really correct each and every day? If you kept score, I think you'd be surprised.

You're not as samrt as you think you are.

HBTM

Born in a man's world...and not even close to letting go of that legacy. Can't. Don't really want to. He told me his earliest memories were of working. He polished the headlights of cars when they rolled into his granddaddies gas station. He told me, a few years after that how he about pulled all-nighters 'till dawn there during his summer vacations after finishing the 2nd grade. Didn't get paid in money, only always wanted that Schwinn with the ape-hangers, banana seat and 3 speed shifter on the suicide bar. The way he was introduced to the birds and the bees was being given a stack of Classic comics like the "Swiss Family Robinson" and the "Count of Monte Cristo" with a couple of skin mags hiding in there for him to find. Innocently, not knowing it was done on purpose, he kept the 'dirty' magazines hidden. He asked once what was meant when his dad and uncle gave S&H Greenstamps to that lady and why it took so long in her house if they were just dropping them off.

And it's been the same for the years since. A boy trapped in a man's body.

I don't know who first said that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. But, I'd sure like to meet that fumduck and kindly kick his ass. Why the good gawd would allow sweet liitle girls to grow up into some of the women they do escapes me. Little boys never grow up. I've always wanted to shoot tigers and smoke cigars. Men don't want that gal they fell in love with to change. Hell, that's why he fell, because of what she was. Did he think..."Hmmm, she's OK the way she is, but I know I can make her better. A little this here and some of that there, she'll be perfect. Yeah, that's it...I'll keep her and start the changes tomorrow."? No.
Women...sheeet...wimmen ...just don't see life as being that simple. I'm not asking that, I'm telling you. They meet a sterling chap and see what could be. From that moment she revises the remodelling blueprints for his future over and over and over. Of course, I'm only generalizing. It really depends mostly on how fcked up you are by the time she gets you. No amount of bitching it out will change what is.